Showing posts with label listening to your inner voice. Show all posts
Showing posts with label listening to your inner voice. Show all posts

Friday, April 1, 2011

I'm A Donkey

I intended to write this post about playing Texas Hold'em, which I do occasionally at casinos around the country. I intended to write about taking big risks; going for outside straights and getting them, bluffing 20 times the pot and winning, looking someone in the eyes and being able to tell they're lying.

But now that I think about it, I don't really have much more to say on the subject other than what I just said, which probably makes me an even bigger donkey for picking this subject. So what now? I'm not sure.

What games do you like to play and who are your favorite players?

For me, in the game of Texas Hold'em, I favor Tom Dwan - I think he encompasses a number of styles of play that I like - plus he isn't that bad to look at and although he started out cocky he seems to have matured. Phil Hellmuth used to irk me, but now I find him more amusing. I like Daniel Negreanu as well.

I have a sort of equilibrium, sober I don't do as well as I do semi-drunk, so I take in a few drinks - I guess it helps loosen up my play and keeps me more interested in the game. My husband and I have very different styles, when we play tourneys together we often split the pot or we fight to the end to see who the ultimate winner is. We don't keep numbers, but I would say I win 50% of the time.

At home games one of use usually wins; we don't mind taking the money of our friends and family in a fair game. But at the casinos we both lose just about as much as we win. . .

Lately my game seems to be roulette :) 

By the way, a donkey in poker is a person who lacks playing skill and makes outrageous moves that the odds are against.

 
Tomorrow, Young Phenious Walks. . .

Sunday, March 27, 2011

The Unexpected

This post is mostly for me - a record of this time, of what's going on with me and my body - as such, I suggest any sensitive men types stay away for today.

I feel strange, I haven't had a period since December and now I am worried. My surgery went well to release my uterus from my large intestines and remove the degenerating fibroids. I had little bleeding from anywhere since then and my pain varies, although it is not as bad as it was before the surgery. So now what? This is unexpected, I feel like I'm missing my womanhood. I feel incomplete. I feel incompetent. I feel. . .

I want to move on from this; from worrying about my womanly problems. I don't want to think of what it all means, and how it all started (aka Normal To EatPB and Recipe For A Baby). I am lost. The doctor said it may take a few months for things to get back to normal, but it's going on four months and now I am worried. What if this whole thing triggered an early menopause? What if something else is wrong? I have no answers. I can't get any answers; only one word: wait. So I wait, and I am scared, because there are no answers.

Tomorrow, Poetry Corner. . .
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