This post is mostly for me - a record of this time, of what's going on with me and my body - as such, I suggest any sensitive men types stay away for today.
I feel strange, I haven't had a period since December and now I am worried. My surgery went well to release my uterus from my large intestines and remove the degenerating fibroids. I had little bleeding from anywhere since then and my pain varies, although it is not as bad as it was before the surgery. So now what? This is unexpected, I feel like I'm missing my womanhood. I feel incomplete. I feel incompetent. I feel. . .
I want to move on from this; from worrying about my womanly problems. I don't want to think of what it all means, and how it all started (aka Normal To EatPB and Recipe For A Baby). I am lost. The doctor said it may take a few months for things to get back to normal, but it's going on four months and now I am worried. What if this whole thing triggered an early menopause? What if something else is wrong? I have no answers. I can't get any answers; only one word: wait. So I wait, and I am scared, because there are no answers.
Tomorrow, Poetry Corner. . .
