So, I grew up a tom-boy, and as such I often have boyish behavior - particularly when I am alone with my husband. Often I like to initiate wrestling matches, tickle fights, and I also enjoy smacking his butt. To me, he is so much more than my husband, he's also my friend. As explained in Prom Night, we have a long history. We rough-house often and neither of us like to lose.
So, the reason I bring this up is because my husband usually winds up on the short end of the stick when it comes to us playing. I inadvertently scratch him, or make him strain or sprain something, and when we wrestle and I'm losing I threaten to grab his nuts and squash them. You heard me. I don't like to lose. When he gets hurt, I always feel bad, but I like to win more than I care about feeling bad - I mean, intellectually that isn't true, but in the heat of the moment I never think straight. My husband is a gentle soul, and he usually just lets me bowl him over, but occasionally he likes to show his dominance. When he does this, rarely do I feel like he's hurt me. To me, we're like two tiger cubs batting each other around.
Lately though, I've been thinking that I need to quit this behavior because it just seems so immature even if we are alone and no one (until now) knows that we do this. The thing about it is that after we rough-house I always feel so much closer to him on a human level, not a husband and wife level; it reminds me of playing with my brothers when I was a child.
What do you all think? Is this wrong?
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